1 Year Anniversary

It was 1 Year ago today I was laying on a gurney in a Hospital prepared to die. I know how crazy that sounds, but I really did prepare myself. I left letters, spreadsheets and anything I thought could be a resource if I didn't. It's weird to find yourself in that place, it's uneasy and most of all you picture life going on without you in it. I tried so very hard to remain positive on the outside and I know my family did as well. For some of us it wasn't our first Rodeo..... I know what I've been through has changed me, mortality has been in the forefront. I live passionately, I love deeply and I try to be the person I most want to be seen as. I make mistakes, I apologize and most of all I don't leave things unsaid. I don't hold onto anger, I let go of resentment and I free myself of the burdens in which others may place on me. In the BIG picture I am so grateful too be. I cannot imagine living my life any other way  and I don't think I would want too. There are experiences that are hard, there are limits to overcome and with us much Grace as each of us have we try to conquer those. My sense of self and a little humor gets me through a lot. My opinions and my stance of what is wrong and right maybe a little skewed, however I am just like you, wanting love and validation and just time too be with the people I love the most, and that is what LIFE is all about.